I have been having a tough time lately. There aren’t enough hours in the day. I have too much I want to do and not enough time.
A typical day for me starts at 3:40 am and by the time 7:45 rolls around I am struggling to stay awake. The past few weeks I have gotten more and more into crossfit. But at the same time, my running has taken a back seat. I am trying to look at it as me resting before my marathon training starts in July. I said I would be taking it easy and just running for fun so I guess I am following through….
I was supposed to run a 1/2 marathon this weekend and for the first time in my life I decided to opt out of that and stick with the 5k instead. This was a super tough decision for me, and I know I am disappointing some people by choosing this… I am even disappointed in myself.
I want to go into marathon training with a good thoughts. I ran the St. Luke’s half marathon faster than I could have ever imagined. EVER. Since then I have been way too busy to get any decent speed work or long runs in. I am just too busy. Even this blog (which I really enjoy) has taken a toll and my posts are becoming less and less. I want to train for the marathon feeling like I could ACTUALLY, juuuust maybe cut a ton of time off my PR. If I was to race this weekend I know I could finish but I don’t think I would be happy with my time. I would either mentally already be defeated for PR’ing in the marathon or I would be a complete freak and sign up for another 1/2 to redeem myself.
I love running. I love working out. I love fitness. I love all of it. I want to do it all…
I need to find a better balance. I have people in my life I need to make more time for. I need to find more time for me, to do things I like other than running and crossfitting and working.
Until I find a way to balance it all out, this will be my best friend…